As I sit down in my desk chair (finally!) to finish this post...I pray this finds you well, and full of Joy this Christmas!
So-We've all done it...had a lingering thought about it. You know, that fantasy where the you run into the person person who has wronged you (looking your best- also kids are perfectly behaving) and you have just the right thing to say to make them feel as small as possible. Or worse, you get the opportunity to actually take the shot and proceed.
Ewww. Then it hits you (ah hum, me). Well, then they hit me, rather. "They" being the many thing coming out of my heart in this scenario of uglies.
First, and most striking, is... ouch, yuck and how did that get there?! What is coming out of my heart Lord! As I realize, dear friend, that my thoughts... and especially my words are not just random floaties with no undercurrent riding on the Diet Coke of life. James 2 anyone?
In fact, Jesus tells us, "For the mouth speaks what the heart is full of" in Luke 6:45b.
So if my mouth says something nasty...there is nasty in my heart? Seriously that simple?! That's what He said, and He is ever-correct.
So then, could it be that old saying, "I didn't mean it!" sometimes really means "I didn't want that to come out that way!"; or "Oh my, I've obviously got unresolved messiness in the heart!"; and maybe most important, "I need to reach to my God, Healer and Provider... and did I say fast?!"
Instead of living condemned by our untimely, hurtful words, let's allow those little uglies be the very things that drive us into our hearts- and into the One who leads us to forgiveness, peace and cleanliness of the heart. Not an excuse for sin, a replacement for repentance, but a means of heart level, course-correction.
You know, the overflow of the heart can be one of the most beautiful pictures of heaven on earth, where earnest forgiveness, blessing, and encouragement all flow. Where we commune together, bearing with one another...I think we have all been on the receiving end of such love at least once.